The fear is gone, but my body still SWEAT,

 My pain is gone, but my wound is DEEP,

 I want to speak, but secrets are to KEEP, 

I have closed my eyes, but I am SLEEPLESS,

 I may have cleaned up everything, but my life is a big MESS!!

©ANDY

Min. Of Heart Affairs 🤝

Yeah right? ...I just know everyone gets that Feels atleast once in a while.

I don't know if it's fate or a bad omen which has taking a solace on my poor self!😫.

As usual,I was having a very bad day,this day it was just too much, it's just a day off my birthday anniversary,I have been running around to get my pictures ready,You know in this place where we all come from, birthday celebration are always backed by posting of fine pictures and all.

My boss got me upset at work,as if that wasn't enough, everyone else seemed to be pissing me off,I was angry for no just course,first I lost my appetite, followed by an evil Migraine,gosh it was so unbearable,I had to take two doze of paracetamol,that didn't work instead it got more worse which resulted to a Mood swing...🤦🏿‍♂️😭.

I was just in a high state,I was tired,weak and sleepy but can't sleep.

I had to leave the office at about 6pm and almost got into a fight with a passerby...can't really explain in details.😰

With rage I drove all the way home,before I got home I stopped by a nearby kiosk and got a caffeine,a sachet type(liquidised),I seldom take that to keep me fully awake anytime I want to stay up all night,I gulped it all right there and left for home.

On reaching home,I went straight to the parlor to greet Mom,it has become a tradition I do everyday once I'm back home from work,and anytime I missed that,it is always war..😏 

I bowed and greeted her and stood to leave but she called me back and instantly concluded I took alcohol, saying she's perceiving an offensive odour..🙄

Ahhhh!.. Alcohol keh abeg oo.

I smiled and defended in a flash.

She stood facing me and still maintained,I took alcohol.

Omorr that was when I knew it wasn't a play.😳

I was already getting irritated,I had to defend myself even more but this time I was a bit loud.

"How can you claim I took alcohol just like that,how can u tell ?...🙄😭

I wish I never said that,she slapped me twice and it got me really pissed.

I was shouting and cursing at the same time,Big sis was already in the parlor after hearing our voice and immediately concluded that truly I was drunk and I am under the influence of Alcohol for having such a gut to talk back at Mom.

I was already fumed,I fired back at her and left the room.

"Am so disappointed and ashamed of you sis,thanks and God bless you".

I could hear Mom cursing and threatening brimstone and fire!.

"You will get out of my house this very moment,you fool...I cant stay in the same house with a drunk'..

Am out in the streets as the time of writing this memoir...😭😭💔

Please talk to me guys,am loosing my mind,what did I really do wrong...huh!?

Am helpless 😥.

tomorrow is my birthday and I have forgotten about it already,this is the worst day ever and the worst birthday to come,as I won't be celebrating with my family..

Am not even celebrating,am loosing my mind.

I can't think straight😭😭💔..