He went searching for her in places he felt she might have gone, but she wasn't found. I was informed the next morning and I quickly went over to the family house. 

We went to make an entry at the police station and the police assured us they would find her. 

Days later, her body was found in a refuse dump not too far from our house. We were devastated. After the police were done with their investigations, they let us bury her. We eventually buried our mother too and moved on.

I believe that incident took a heavy toll on my father because his health just deteriorated from there. He has retired to the village and I go to see him at least two weekends in a month. 

Recently, I heard that my brother, who now lives in another town, got into a fight and was arrested. We were still trying to get the full information, so we can follow up properly when I got a call that he's dead. He had always been hotheaded. I warned him that if he continued that way, he won't end up well and now he's dead. 

In as much as it pains me to lose him, I cannot kill myself over him. What worries me now is how to break the news to my father because he may not survive it."

Two of my friends have advised me several times to have kids and forget about marriage because women of this generation do not have good character, but I have refused to listen to them.

I met this lady on Facebook. She is in Nursing school in the East and will graduate in November. She will be 25years old in November while I will be 40years old in September. I told her I'd be coming home for Christmas. I will also organize a remembrance party for my late parents and brother, and open my house this Christmas.

She asked me my age and when I told her, she said I was too old for her. I tried convincing her that age is just a number and besides, older men are more caring in marriage.

I have been assisting her with money to feed in school even though I have not met her in person, but I've seen her through video calls.

I am beginning to think that what my friends told me is the reality and it would be best to follow their advice. I may just have kids and when they're old enough, I'll bring them over to join me if I am still living abroad. 

I get discouraged by the day, but I will wait till the end of the year to make a decision. "